I can’t tell you how many times I’ve found myself asking this exact question. “God would you just tell me which way to go?”, I’ve cried. It is the most desperate cry of a frustrated heart. One that has found itself at its wits ends and completely struggling for direction in a moment of uncertainty.
Infertility lives in the land of uncertainty and does a great job of presenting a whole host of unknowns. Knowing that you want to grow your family is often the only thing you know for sure; and sometimes that can even be questioned. It is the how that opens the doors to the unknown and sets the the stage for questions galore.
Will we try another medical procedure? Which professional will we trust to provide care? Can we endure another IUI or IVF? What about donor eggs? Should we adopt instead? What is the difference between an adoption agency, facilitator, or consultant? How much does all of this cost? Where do we get the money from?
Even as I celebrate my 46thbirthday, I’m in the midst of these unknowns. Rodney and I are exploring our options and preparing to move forward with one of them. It’s a time of excitement and yet more options which means more questions.
As a Christ follower, I boldly confess over my life that His sheep know His voice and another I will not follow based on John 10:27. I know that I recognize the voice of the Lord. But it would be great if He would take the guesswork out of it and make it clear which path to take. Just tell me which way to go…
The good news is, He does! God’s Word says in Hebrews 11:6 (NLT) that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. He promises to give us direction and so much more. But, there are also conditions with these rewards. The verse also says, But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is. Simply put, we must have faith in God and who He is and move forward.
We just attended our second Choose Joy event in Atlanta and God met us there. This year’s theme, He Sees You, was such a wonderful reminder for those of us battling infertility. Feeling forgotten by God may the facts of our experience but it is not the truth.
We were reminded that God loves us and He has a plan for us and our families. The sessions were amazing and seeing couples we connected with last year was especially sweet. My heart was lifted as I was reminded that God works outside of my timeline and no time is ever wasted in Him. I even got to meet some wonderful ladies from Detroit during this Atlanta conference. How ironic?
The Lord just showed out as He brought us together with a fellow infertility warrior who was attending Choose Joy as a result of listening to our Sarah’s Laughter Infertility Podcast episode; listen here http://podcast.sarahs-laughter.com/episode-99-as-of-yet-leandrea-rodney-fisher. Here we are pictured together after our great discovery; Rodney and I, our new friend, and Beth Forbus, the founder of Sarah’s Laughter. I was overwhelmed and humbled. This was something only God could do and it was clear that He is telling me which way to go.
Both of us still have to walk out the details of growing our family. We’ve still got to decide what we desire and how to pursue it. But, God was letting me know that I’m moving in the right direction while I move towards the family He has for us.
If you think about it, I bet you’ve had some of those moments where God confirmed His plans for you. Let me help you out. Have you grown on this journey? Have you met other warriors who have become friends that you will still call when you’re done growing your family? Have you been inspired to encourage others along the way? Do you feel peace in your heart as you ponder your next step? That’s His direction.
God has given us the Holy Spirit to lead and guide us and He promised to do just that. Ask Him to give you the direction you seek and to confirm it with peace. Boldly confess that the Lord is leading you as you commit your way to Him. He will tell you which way to go.
HOPE-Filled Thought: Trust in the Lord with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:5-6 NLT
Prayer: Thank you Lord for your direction. You knew that we would face challenges like infertility and you have provided help in our time of need. Lead us and guide us through this season into the family you have for us. We desire to bring your glory in all that we do. We receive your love with joy and it is so. Amen.
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